1. Anonymous asked: I've fantasized about you

    Wow, um, thank you? I think? I’m not 100% sure what the right answer to this is.

    I hope they weren’t the kind of fantasies that involved like…violently murdering me or something.

     
  2. 01:23 22nd Apr 2014

    Notes: 1

    1:16am Messed Up Brain Thoughts Time

    My head is in a weird place. I can’t sleep. 

    **I got in a car accident today. That sucked.

    **I’m really messed up because Ben is leaving - it fucked with my head way more than I thought it would. The thought of saying goodbye (probably forever) to someone who’s played such a huge role in my life over the past four years really blows. 

    **I’m really stressed about money right now. And part of that will go away after I find another job. So now I’m also stressed about finding an extra job.

    **I’m really ambivalent about school right now. I’ve just reached a wall where I have no more fucks to give. I need to care. I can’t.

    **I’m in a place where I’m kind of re-evaluating what’s truly important to me and what matters and what doesn’t. Trying to figure out what I should truly invest my time and efforts into. That’s weird too.

    **And I’m trying to figure out where my future is going. That’s not working well.

    **I’m alone and I guess that’s okay for now. I guess I’m also shitty at talking to guys and just generally relationships. It stresses me out and makes me uncomfortable usually. So I guess I’ll keep doing this til I figure it out.

    Someone tell me it’s gonna be okay.

     
  3. I have no idea what I’m doing 700% of the time.

     
  4. 22:44 14th Apr 2014

    Notes: 5

    image: Download

    Sometimes my major sucks. Sometimes it’s incredibly frustrating. Sometimes I hate everything I’m doing. Sometimes I have no idea what’s going on. But busting my ass in this lab for three years and legitimately seeing something come as a result of it? Seeing my name in print in a respected science journal?
That fucking rules.
I’m proud of me. 

    Sometimes my major sucks. Sometimes it’s incredibly frustrating. Sometimes I hate everything I’m doing. Sometimes I have no idea what’s going on. But busting my ass in this lab for three years and legitimately seeing something come as a result of it? Seeing my name in print in a respected science journal?

    That fucking rules.

    I’m proud of me. 

     
  5. 00:31 8th Apr 2014

    Notes: 43

    Reblogged from sleddingwithtigers

    sleddingwithtigers:

    Here’s a new song off of our new record, which is being released on April 12th. Pre-order the Vinyl here, plz: 

    HERE ARE THE LYRICS:

    I know that I shouldn’t say that I miss
    but I miss you
    And I know that I shouldn’t text you,
    but I’ll be damned if I don’t text you
    And I should be over this by now
    And I should be over you

    I’ve been spending too much time alone and
    I’ve been staring at my phone
    And I’ve been thinking about you too much
    But I should be over this by now and
    I should be over you

     
  6. I want passion, even if it’s harder and hurts more.
    — New Girl
     
  7. "This conflicted heart beating in my chest is fighting with the demons in my head. Sometimes I feel like I’d be better off dead.
    It’s my heart vs. my head this time.”

    -Heart vs. Head, Handguns

     
  8. 03:26 31st Mar 2014

    Notes: 1

    Feeling 22.

    So. I’m another year older.
    I guess it’s weird because for the first time, I actually feel like an adult now.
    I mean, I’ve legally been an adult for four years (well, three if you ask Nebraska), but right now I feel like a legitimate grown up. Like I’m not a kid anymore and I can make mature life choices now.
    I should probably stop fucking around and get my life together, because that’s what adults do.

    Of course, right now it’s 3:30am and I’m wearing Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle boxer shorts and drinking cold coffee and watching Netflix. So I’ll start the whole “grown up” thing tomorrow.

     
  9. 21:05 26th Mar 2014

    Notes: 1

    I want to go back to July and August.

    I miss how things used to be.
    I miss when we were friends.
    I miss when we spent every single day of the summer talking.
    I miss the late night conversations we had when we were 100% honest. When there was nothing off limits. When we talked about our families and our dads and growing up and anxiety and depression and adventures we want to have and places we want to visit.
    I miss the conversations when we talked about our firsts.
    I miss our conversations that consisted of nothing but quoting Arrested Development for two hours. And laughing so hard I almost cried.
    I miss knowing that you were going to favorite pretty much all of my tweets and Instagram photos.
    I miss getting coffee in the mornings after band and just being utterly silly.
    I miss all of our inside jokes.

    I miss feeling like I could talk to you about anything and everything. I miss the friendship we had. I miss how awesome everything was. When we had no idea where it was going. When it was all new and just a little forbidden.

    We made our choices. Both of us.
    But if I could choose all over again, I’d choose what we used to have.

     
  10. 01:40

    Notes: 1

    2:39am, can’t sleep like a normal human being